Zivim u senci senke, tvoje senke
i znam da znas
jos uvek sminkam stvarnost tvojom bojom
jer drukcije ne umem, ne razumem
Ne zelim pred laznim svetom celim
da se lazno veselim
to nije osmeh, to je grc
ljudi su slepi
Lepi dani, nasmejani
za tebe, za mene skice
druge duge ulice, srce skitnice
zgazeno nehotice znam da znas
Jer u svim snovima ti vrtim
sve te prazne reci praznim danima
nestajes i prica odavno nije fer
lepotica i zver, suvise razno sve je prazno
Prazno je zarazno, neprolazno
vracam se njima, zar mislis
da se stvarno ponosim time
u mojoj glavi posle svega
Sve one nemaju cak ni ime
samo te oci posecene vetrom
koje sjaje bas kao i moje
znam da znas
Al’ ne vidis i ne cujes
i ne znas koje
male stvari se broje
i dok porazi se roje
Plasim se da priznam
da postojis, rane gnoje
i da mi falis
fale mi dodiri, fale mi reci
Fali mi osmeh, fali mi lice
fale mi lazi, fale sitnice, dosta krivice
ptice selice nestaju ja ostajem
i svi ti pogledi me plase
Prokleti srecni zagrljeni ljudi
sve te uloge su bile nase
samo moje i tvoje a gde smo sad
gledaj u mene, nema mene
Samo sene uspomene, samo tragovi
koliko dobijes, toliko das, ti nisi smela
znam da znas, znam da znas, znam da znas
Jedan zivot, gde prestajem ja
gde pocinjes ti
jedna ljubav, gde stali smo mi
gde sad su drugi
I reci sta je to ponos, sta je to sram
ne zelim da znam
i kad se svet srusi
na starom mestu bicu sam
Sve suze sveta sprala je kisa
na kraju nisi ni siguran
da si uopste plakao
niti da si dno dotakao
A nagao kakav jesam
slagao sam sebe da si laz
i vratio se svojim starim stazama
ali ni svi peroni sveta
Nimalo me nisu promenili
i dalje isti blejer iz bloka
uvek mastarskog oka
nikad izvan svog toka
Mikrofon i dalje rokam
na putu do doka luke srece
i dan je taj sto me vara
plavetnilo neba misli skrece
A onda padne noc, prokleto dugi sati
sakatim srcem shvatim
sitnice, ponos, inati nece mi dati
da pratim trag, a znam
Sve je nista, slomicu kazaljke
vreme ce stati, kosmos ce cekati
da samo umem da te vratim
trazim te, sanjam te pijanim ocima
U nocima, u tudjim licima
u stanovnicima nekih drugih svetova
gde je nas
micem usnama bez glasa
Dok pada zaborava plast
cutim jer znam da znas
uvek si znala i uvek znas
ti, jedina moja koja odavno nisi jedina
Svaka sekunda kao godina
al’ barem znam na cemu sam
i barem znam da nema nas
i spreman sam da budem nasmejan
Pred svima iako te kad sam solo
i dalje oblikujem od oblaka dima
i kroz paucinu vracam dane
kad smo ti i ja jos bili tim
Oprosti sto nemam snage da te slazem
da ti zelim srecu sa njim
a i sta ce ti to od mene
sve uspomene sa kaputa stresi
Samo budi to sto jesi, tu gde si
sta god da se desi ti budi ok
i nikad ne saznaj kako to boli
kad nekoga volis, a mrzis
Kad mrzis, a volis i lomis se da izdrzis
ostaje nada da ce nekad negde neko
hteti da shvati mene
moja lutanja, mastanja i sanjanja
I znati da ih prati i ko zna
mozda jednom nadjes me
tamo gde prestajem ja
gde pocinjes ti, gde stali smo mi
Gde sada su drugi
ali sresces samo stranca
slucajnog prolaznika i pogled leden
iako te je taj neznanac
nekada voleo vise od sebe
English Translation
One Life
I’m living in the shadow of a shadow, your shadow
and I know that you know
I’m still painting the reality with your colour
because I don’t know nor do I comprehend any other way
I don’t want to, in front the entire fake world,
to pretend to be happy
that’s not a smile, that’s a cramp
people are blind
Beautiful days, smiling
for you, for me – sketches
of another long street, a tramp’s heart
stepped over accidentally, I know that you know
Because in all dreams I’m repeating
all the empty words for empty days
You’re disappearing and the story hasn’t been fair since long time ago
a beauty and a beast, too miscellaneous, everything is void
Void is contagious, endless
I’m going back to them, do you seriously think
I’m really proud of it
in my head, after all
All of them don’t even have a name
just the eyes cut with the wind
that glow just like mine
I know that you know
But you don’t see and you don’t hear
and you don’t know which
little things count
and while defeats are swarming
I’m afraid to admit
that you exist, my wounds are festering
and that I miss you
I miss the touches, I miss the words
I miss the smile, I miss the face
I miss the lies, I miss the little things, enough with the guilt*
migratory birds are disappearing, I’m staying
and all the looks are scaring me
Damn happy embraced people
all the roles used to be ours
just mine and yours and where are are we now
look at me, there’s no me
Just shadows of memories, just traces
what you get is what you give, you didn’t dare
I know that you know, I know that you know, I know that you know
One life, where I cease
where you begin
one love, where we stopped
where there are others now
And tell me what is pride, what is shame
I don’t want to know
and when the world comes tumbling down
I’ll be at the old place, alone
The rain has washed away all the tears of this world
In the end you’re not sure
whether you cried at all
nor whether you’ve touched rock bottom
And hasty as I am
I’ve lied to myself that you’re a lie
and went back to my old paths
but not even all the platforms in this world
Haven’t changed me a bit
still the same idler on the block
always dreamy eyes
never out of his course
I’m still rocking the mic
on the way to happiness haven dock
and the day is the one that tricks me
blueness of the sky is redirecting my thoughts
And then the night falls, damn long hours
with my crippled heart I realize
the little things, pride, spite wont let me
follow the trace, and I know
Everything is nothing, I will break the watch hands
the time will stop, the universe will wait
if only I knew how to get you back
I’m searching for you, dreaming of you with my drunken eyes
In the nights, in strange faces
in citizens of some other worlds
where is ours
I’m moving my voiceless lips
While the veil of oblivion is coming down
I’m silent because I know that you know
you always you knew and you always know
you, my only one who, since long time ago, hasn’t been the only one
Every second like a year
but at least I know where I stand
and at least I know there’s no us
and I’m ready to smile
In front of everybody, although when I’m solo
I still shape you out of smoke clouds
and through the cobweb I’m getting back the days
when you and I were still a team
Forgive me for not being strong enough to lie to you
to wish you happiness with him
and why would you need that from me
shake all the memories off your coat
Just be who you are, where you are
whatever happens, you be ok
and don’t ever find out how much it hurts
when you love but hate someone
When you hate, but love and you struggle to hold on
remains a hope that some day, somewhere, someone
will want to understand me
my wanderings, fantasies and dreams
And know how to follow them and who knows
maybe one day you find me
there where I cease
where you begin, where we stopped
Where there are others now
but you only run into a stranger
a random passerby and a cold look
although that stranger
once loved you more than himself